Within the past few months, I lost fifty pounds. This wasn’t my first attempt but this time was different. I changed from the inside out and truly made a full lifestyle change. I could not have done this without Christ’s strength and his healing. This is not a post to tell you the best way to lose weight but it is only a testimony to what God has done in my heart and life.
I realized I was putting food before God
This is hard to admit but food used to be my god. I am an emotional eater and I let this get the best of me. When things went wrong, instead of turning to God and trusting Him, I would go to food. When I started to turn to God before food (it was not an easy habit to change), I not only continued to lose weight but my relationship with Christ began to grow because I was fully depending on Him. And I was truly filled up. Food only helped the hurt for a minute but God did healing every time I chose Him.
I realized I needed an inside change
I quickly realized that a lot of what was on the outside reflected my inside. I started working on my heart, weaknesses, and struggles which, honestly, is a big reason my body changed. I began to truly love myself and believe who I am as a child of God. I became my own best friend and started forgiving myself for things of the past that I didn’t even realize I was holding against myself. And news flash, Angela…Jesus died and already forgave you. This was one of the hardest changes but it has impacted every aspect of my life. I promise you; your heart and mind truly impact your whole life and attitude.
I realized I wanted to be the best
About half way through my journey, I began to realize that this was a lifestyle change. I wanted to be in the best shape and as ready and prepared as possible to do Kingdom work. I didn’t want my weight or self-confidence issues to hold me back from the call that God has placed on my life. And honestly, I didn’t want my low self-esteem to impact my relationship with Christ anymore. I want to be one of the followers that Christ could always rely on. Because of this bigger purpose, I believe that I can maintain this lifestyle.
I realized God loves me the same
One of the most unexpected revelations that God showed me was He loves me the same. At my current weight or fifty pounds heavier I am still loved equally by God. Like a father, he is proud and wants what is best for me but nothing I can do can earn His love and grace. Being the perfect father, of course, he wants me to be healthy and live the best life I can but His love for me is not determined by the number on the scale. This takes the pressure and demands off in a superficial society.
This has been a long and eye-opening journey but I pray God can use this testimony to speak to you. Wherever you fall on the scale, you are loved by a perfect God. Remember you are so beautiful and loved.